Heather

Reminder

SO.
(in my circle of friends and my little world, every important, intense or interesting story begins with a "SO")

SO.  I have been struggling lately to get along with and be happy with my ex-husband.  As far as the typical divorced couple goes, this is probably not unusual.  But for Blake and I, it is.  We divorced knowing that we would do everything we could possibly do to stay on good terms, have a pleasant relationship and still be OK when we were in each others presence.  We decided this not only with our three children in mind, but also with each other in mind.  We never wanted to get to that horrible EX state that so many people get into.

Well, I have no intentions of going into tons of detail regarding the reasons for my current struggles, they are slightly childish, quite bitter and definitely not fixable at this moment. 

HOWEVER - for you to find the remainder of my story as utterly amusing as I did, you had to know a little bit of background information.

Stay with me here - it is worth it.  LOL

This weekend was particularly difficult for me regarding the whole situation.  I have been angry and hurt and just plain upset, on and off all weekend long.  The boys were with Blake all weekend so I didnt have to hide my feelings but I was SURE to make Blake aware of them. 

Now, I have 4 email addresses, I dont know if that is wierd compared to the rest of the world or not.  There are reasons for each.  I also am able to get emails on my phone from one of my accounts.  Near the end of my "pity party" Sunday night, I was on the phone with someone for quite a while and during that time Blake called me THREE freaking times, but I was enjoying my conversation so I didnt answer any of them. 

NOW HERE IS THE POINT OF THE WHOLE STORY
(some people say I talk to much - no way).

When I got off the phone it told me that I had an email but I pressed ignore.

I walked out into my living room sat down in front of my computer and dialed Blake.

As the phone was ringing I looked at the monitors and

I saw that EVERY single one of my email addresses HAD NEW MAIL.

Blake answered and TOLD me the same thing that was in ALL of my inboxes.

One simple little sentence sent to me 4 times, attempted to be told to me unsuccessfully 3 times and finally said to me at that moment.

HERE IS WHAT THAT ONE LITTLE SENTENCE WAS:

I hurt my back doing your laundry

WHY DOES THIS EVEN MATTER??????????

Because I obviously needed to be reminded of the good things and of the small things and that if I look at the BIG PICTURE I will see that I should be grateful for all that I have.  My blessings are MANY, only one of which is:

AN EX-HUSBAND WHO HURT HIS BACK WHILE DOING OUR LAUNDRY.

Thanks Blake, Im still pissed off - but you totally ROCK.

Blakes Ringtones

I updated my Facebook status to say that "after 9 months of Blakes ringtone on my phone being the same song (NOT READY TO MAKE NICE by the Dixie Chicks) I finally changed it TODAY"   I also said "I really dont know how to feel, Im still not "ready to make nice" and I am still "mad as hell" but I NEEDED to change something."

I was slightly disappointed (theres the high maintenance, former only child coming out) in the fact that NO ONE ASKED WHAT I CHANGED IT TO. 

But I have noticed that most of my FB friends tend to avoid any posts that I write about Blake like the freaking plague!!!!!!!!!  (i find it pretty funny).  So I wasnt surprised.

If you havent heard Blakes old ringtone - you can go here to see the video.  Although the song itself wasnt written about a couples relationship, it described how I felt for a long time (and still feel a little).

Blakes NEW ringtone is a brand new song!  You can watch the video - BUT PLEASE DO NOT ASSUME THAT I CHOSE THIS SONG BECAUSE OF WHAT IT IS ABOUT.  OK - seriously.  You can hear the whole song, but remember that a ringtone is only part of the song - MAINLY THE CHORUS.  And for many personal reasons, the chorus FITS.  

 

Miranda Lambert   More CMT Music   More CMT Music Videos

By the way - did you know that I am a total ringtone addict???????????  LOL
I am - everyone has their own. 

AND - did you notice how freaking HOT Miranda Lambert is in that video? 
HOLY CRAP!  I think that is the best I have ever seen her look.  LOVE IT!

CMA - Performers!!!!!

HOLY FREAKING CRAP!!!!!! 
HAVE YOU SEEN THE LIST OF PEOPLE WHO ARE PERFORMING AT THE AWARDS TONIGHT????  It is soooooo amazing!  I am way excited.

Jason Aldean

Brooks and Dunn

Kenny Chesney with Dave Mathews

Billy currington

Vince Gill

Jamey Johnson with Kid rock

Lady Antebellum

Miranda Lambert

Martina McBride

Reba McEntire

Tim McGraw

Brad Paisley

Darius Rucker

George Strait

Sugarland

Taylor Swift

Carrie Underwood

Keith Urban

Zac Brown Band

CMA Awards - Garrett

Here are Garrett's choices for the awards tonight:

© 2009 Country Music Association

CMA Awards - Trevor

Here are Trevor's choices for the main categories:
© 2009 Country Music Association

CMA AWARDS - my picks

The boys and I LOVE watching the CMA Awards!  It is like a little party for us.  We all guess who will win what and we record it so if there is some fantastic performance (like when Carrie Underwood sang Just a Dream) we can watch it over and over. 

Here are MY choices for the major categories:

© 2009 Country Music Association

HAPPY BIRTHDAY to the most FAMOUS person I know.

I have been so very fortunate for the past few years to be able to call CHRISTY TOMLINSON one of my personal friends.

To me - she isn't a DESIGNER, a SCRAPBOOK EXTRAORDINAIRE, the FOUNDER of a SHOCKINGLY SUCCESSFUL kit company, a former CHATTERBOX employee or even one hell of a FANTASTIC TEACHER.

(and now Im getting teary)

To me - she is an HONEST BUSINESS WOMAN, a glorious MOTHER, a LOYAL FRIEND, a GENEROUS angel, a HARD WORKING church member, an understanding WIFE, a DOWN TO EARTH woman and someone who does not have a single shred of SNOBBINESS OR JUDGEMENTAL-NESS in her entire (little) body.

My life has personally been blessed in many more ways than just scrapbooking because of her.

I have often said that when I GROW UP - I want to be just like CHRISTY.

So in honor of her 25th birthday (lol) I gathered the personal photos that I have of her for all of YOU to enjoy. 
Although she is going to TOTALLY FREAK OUT that I am posting these - I DONT CARE.  To me, my grainy photos of a pajama clad Christy are the EPITOME of who she is! 
MORE THAN ANYTHING ELSE
SHE IS COMPLETELY
NORMAL.

 
These were from shortly after she left Boise and had a little "retreat" at her house!  I STILL adore my projects from it.

 

And if you give her a GIANT PIXY STIX for a treat - she might find it a little sour at first, but she will LOVE IT regardless.

 
And if you are lucky enough to have her for a FRIEND then you KNOW that she is always up for a scrapbooking retreat, even if she doesnt actually manage to scrap anything - she loves to hang out with the girls!

 
Shockingly - for as beautiful as she is - even in her jammies, she DOES NOT LIKE having her picture taken.

And chances are, if you stop at her house WITHOUT CALLING FIRST - you are likely to be greeted at the door by at least one half naked little boy.

If its a good day - it will be this little boy and he will want to PLAY and LAUGH and show you all of his treasures.

If its a different day - it will be an emotional pouter who's life is being RUINED by some tiny little thing and you will be able to tease him until he finally laughs.

And if you stay long enough, the other kids will come home.  Some will sit and chat your ear off and some will hide in the other room.

Eventually you are bound to see Christy's SUPER HOT hubby come in from outside and he will talk to you like he has known you his whole life. 

But in my opinion - the best part of your visit to the TOMLINSON house will by far be the fact that there are toys on the floor, there are a gazillion shoes by the front door, there is always a child who wants to be with and talk to his wonderful MOTHER (dont count on having a moment ALONE with Christy) and while you sit on her couch and TRY to take a photo of her - you will notice that no one is RUSHING AROUND, OR CLEANING UP, OR ACTING ANY DIFFERENTLY than they would if you werent there.

THATS BECAUSE THE MOST FAMOUS WOMAN THAT I KNOW - IS ALSO ONE OF THE MOST NORMAL.

Happy Birthday Christy - you mean the absolute world to me and I miss you immensely.
HUGS AND KISSES TO YOUR WHOLE FAMILY.

Theres a new MAN in my life.

Although I plan to save formal introductions to all of you for a later date (dont worry - sooner rather than later).  I wanted to be sure that everyone knew of his utterly fantastic existence.  I dont think that my life has ever been more COMPLETE than it is currently because my biological father has been a part of my it for the past few months.

However - before you get your hopes up as to me giving details and such, I must warn you - THIS POST IS MAINLY FOR HIM. 

Dad, I found this poem on one of my internet purusing adventures and I KNEW that it was meant for us.  Im sure that the author wrote it with some sort of romanticism in mind - but I took it as what a daughter would say to her daddy.  Or at least what THIS daughter would say to her daddy.

I love you for giving your heart to me
and trusting me with your pride
I love you for wanting me
and needing me by your side

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I love you for the emotions
I never knew I had
I love you for making me smile
whenever I feel sad

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I love you for your thoughts of me
how I'm always on your mind
I love you for finding that part of me
that I never thought I'd find

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I love you for the way you are
and for how you make me feel
But most of all I love you
because I know you're mine for real

Wednesday Word Day

A few of my family members post words and their definitions and synonyms on Facebook everyday.  I tend to enjoy it tons, especially when they are words that I dont know.  I know that I couldn't handle the "stress" (LOL) of posting a word everyday - so I thought I would post one each week.  So every Wednesday I will share a word with you.  I also thought that here on my blog it would be fun to share a photo or some sort of image that corresponds with my word.

DESPONDENT:
feeling or showing profound hopelessness, dejection, discouragement, or gloom

Synonyms:
bummed-out, cast-down,
despairing, disconsolate,
disheartened, dispirited,
doleful, down,
downcast, downhearted,
forlorn, glum,
grief stricken, hopeless,
in a blue funk, in despair,
in the pits, melancholy,
miserable, morose,
mourning, sad,
shot down, sorrowful,
woebegone, wretched

In memory of Melissa

I know this is a day early from the anniversary of Melissa's death (sorry - her MURDER, death makes it sound much less tragic) but I am already crying about other stuff so I figured I would just add one more thing to the list.

Im not usually one to enjoy re-posting or crap like that, but there isnt much more I can say about the situation other than what I said last year.  So I decided that EVERY YEAR ON OCTOBER 28TH I would re-post this same blog to remind me of a wonderful woman that should not have been taken from the world.

EIGHT years ago, October 28th was on a Sunday.  We had just moved into our house a few months before and didnt know many people in our neighborhood.  We didnt go to church so Sundays were a day for going to Rexburg to visit Blakes family.  Geez - back then we only had 2 kids, Garrett was barely a fetus.  That Sunday we got up and got ready and piled into the car (we didnt even have a van back then) and backed out of the driveway and drove down the street to get out of our neighborhood.  As we turned the corner at the end of our street we saw tons of police cars and news vehicles all around a cute little brick house. 

I remember the words that were said inside our car VERY CLEARLY. 

Ashley - HOLY CRAP!
Blake - Dang what the hell kind of neighborhood did we move into?
Trevor - Whats going on?
Blake - Well, theres news people, I guess we will have to watch the news tonight.
ME - OH MY HELL BLAKE - Melissa was staying with her parents, I bet thats where they live.
Blake - NO WAY!
ME - I bet he finally did it, I BET HE KILLED HER RIGHT THERE IN HER PARENTS HOUSE.
Blake - Come on, what are the chances of that?  And of her parents living so close to us?
ME - I KNOW THATS WHAT HAPPENED.  I guess we will see when we watch the news won't we?

Of course after that, we had to talk the whole way to Rexburg all about how I knew Melissa (a girl that I worked with) and why on Earth I would think that someone would kill her (her ex-fiance was also a co-worker of mine and had been stalking her and attempting to injure her already).  My sweet DRAMA QUEEN of a daughter was enthralled with the suspense of what could have happened.  I on the other hand was somber.  That night we of course did watch the news and found out that I was right (one of the few times that I would have rather NOT been right).  There was tons of drama throughout our community surrounding the actions of the police and of course the MAN-HUNT to find her killer.  Todd was definitely dragging out the process of being caught.  But as always, he eventually was. 

There was tons of freaking out at work and all over the community.  I went to the candle light vigil that they had for her.  The day of her funeral I could not bring myself to go.  I wish now that i had (of course, then I didnt know that I was having a panic attack about it). 

She and I were not BEST FRIENDS or anything, but definitely friends.

It has been my total privilege to become great friends with Melissa's mom - Debbie and the rest of her family.  I went a couple years being curious about what exactly happened that day.  But on the way home from a Relief Society Retreat one year, I rode in the same car as Debbie and I finally got up the courage to ask.  She told us the whole story.  HOW COMPLETELY SAD.  And on the other hand, there were so many things that happened surrounding Melissa's death that were WONDERFUL and a true testament to the power of the Lord. 

I read her obituary a few months ago online and totally wanted to post it here, BUT OF COURSE NOW I CANT FIND THE LINK TO IT.  If anyone has a link to it, please let me know.

I did however come across  a news story about Todd trying to get his sentence appealed.  What a freaking bastard.  

And of course, I am also friends with Melissa's sister Kristen.  She is so sweet and cute.  

So I guess as I sit here boobing to myself, my point is that life is so freaking short, and none of us ever know what lies around the corner for us.  

And I always tell friends who go through a tragedy like this, that if I were in their shoes I would have the hardest time with the fact that LIFE GOES ON.  At least for the rest of the world.  But for the person suffering right then, it feels like THE WORLD HAS STOPPED SPINNING and life will never ever be the same.  So to Debbie and Kristen and their whole family, let me just say that TODAY, FOR JUST A MINUTE, MY WORLD STOPPED SPINNING TOO, AND I CRIED FOR ALL OF YOU TOO.  

I bet Melissa is having a fabulous time right now!  Isnt it great to have a testimony of the Gospel and to know with a certainty where she is and what she's doing?????????????  

I LOVE YOU GUYS A TON AND THINK OF YOU ALL THE TIME.

WINNER & my FAVORITE costumes!

Sooooooooo, after I gave everyone a hint - we got ourselves a WINNER!  (not a weiner)  But a WINNER!  So my FAVORITE CANDY IS:

SMARTIES

And the first person to guess that correctly was my pal:

JANNA

Now Janna, in all honesty - I am really really hoping that you dont like smarties, that way I can keep the bag for myself - but you did WIN fair and square so I will give them to you if I HAVE to!

Now onto my very favorite (and very skanky) Halloween costumes!

 
  
 Im not sure which would be better for ME - skanky angel or half angel half devil?  What do you think?

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I thought this one would be PERFECT for Jenell since she is a total Disney freak and she is way skinny now that she is like a tennis pro!

 
IS THIS NOT THE CUTEST THING EVER!!!!!!!!!!  This one is for my friend Brittani - mainly because she has the PERFECT bod for it!  But even if you didnt have the perfect bod - its a freaking MONARCH BUTTERFLY - how unique is THAT???????  love it!

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OK - so I know I cant actually WEAR this one, I mean I hate it when I have to see big girls with their guts hanging out,  but I without a doubt am dying to be

THE QUEEN OF HEARTS

for Halloween this year!  How perfect (be quiet Blake) (LOL) would that be?  And since I am in love with CROWNS, it would totally fit ME!  Ok, since that one is a little TOO SKANKY (even for me).........

HOW ABOUT THIS ONE?????????????????
Oh my heck - it has EVERYTHING that I am currently in love with - thigh highs, corset top, hearts and crowns!  I LOVE IT!  I think I would probably have to add a little layer of fabric to the underneath, just to make it a bit longer (i dont want to be one of THOSE big girls!)  LOL

ALRIGHTY - so out of all the costumes on this post and the one below which do YOU THINK I should be for Halloween this year???????????  And since I am completley UNSELFISH and care about everyone but myself, i really want to know - WHAT ARE YOU GOING TO BE FOR HALLOWEEN?  LMK.
 
 

contest clue!

I am totally going to open this bag of candy soon if no one guesses correctly! 
Here is a hint for you - ITS NOT CHOCOLATE!
Janna and Robin have been the closest with their guesses of PIXIE STIX - but thats not it.
Im going to wait until tonight then I am either opening it - or giving it away!  LOL
And can I just say - the rest of you people should leave a comment and guess too - there have been almost 200 people who have gone to my blog since I put this up here and I only have a FEW guesses!  lol

contest and costumes!

I dont like Halloween.  Of course, I feel like the ONLY person upon the earth who detestes costumes and trick or treating and all that crap - but since I found out that I'm NOT the only Christmas music hater in the world, I must not be the only Halloween hater either.

ANYWAY -------- oh yeah, if you clicked over here JUST for the CONTEST, you have to suffer through (or scroll through, if you dont think my writing is as fantastic as I do) the whole post before we get to the CONTEST part.  OK?????????????

ANYWAY (again) ----- for some strange reason (maybe its the big girl panties that came with the divorce) this year, for Halloween

I WANT TO

DRESS UP,

WEAR A

COSTUME,

JOIN IN THE

PRETENDING

ETC ETC!!!!!!!

Yes - you heard that correctly.  Shocking but true (like most aspects of my life).  But I dont want to wear just any old costume - would that be ME????????????  NO WAY! 
Lately - I have been feeling a little..... well, lets just say HOT!!!!!! 
So I figured I needed a HOT costume as well! 
Now I realize that I am not of the SIZE or BODY TYPE to wear some of these EXACT costumes - but were talking ideas and things quite similar.

 

 

  
Are you seeing a theme here??????????????????
I AM TOTALLY IN LOVE WITH THE THIGH OR KNEE HIGH SOCKS!!!
They are the cutest!

I am not a huge sports fan - but how cute is that?  LOVE IT!

 

SWEET AND INNOCENT little red riding hood and snow white!

I would LOVE to find an ICONIC image of CHRISTINA AGUILERA and be HER for Halloween, but I cant decide what would be best.  I have even considered the Brittany with the red wig in the WOMANIZER video - but I could always go this route for BRITTANY SPEARS:

 

Are those not totally the old Brittany?????????????????????

Blake might like me in THIS ONE!  lol.  (or is that more his OTHER ex-wife?)

AND HOW HOT IS THAT?!?!?!?!?!?!?  and all those people on facebook getting MERMAID as their answer to the what you should be for Halloween quiz - this is perfect!

OK - I'm going to save my last few VERY FAVORITE ONES for the post that has our CONTEST WINNER IN IT!

I KNOW - you probably thought I was so wrapped up in the costume hottness that I was going to FORGET THE CONTEST right????????

HECK NO - I LOVE A GOOD CONTEST!  ESPECIALLY WHEN ITS ABOUT MY FAVORITE SUBJECT:
MEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Alright - the first person to answer this question correctly gets a PRIZE!  Now, I know that you SHOULD be able to guess the answer because I asked Blake and the boys the same question and they had one other guess too - but were correct pretty dang quick.  IF THEY CAN DO IT - ANYONE CAN!  lol

I HAVE A BAG OF MY FAVORITE CANDY SITTING HERE - THE FIRST PERSON TO GUESS CORRECTLY WHAT IT IS - GETS IT.  the only clue I will give you is that it is a common trick or treating candy.   

oh - and for those of you who dont know, click on the word COMMENTS down there and then you can leave your guess there.  dont be scared, its ok - its just a coment on a blog, no worries!  LOL

emotion bowl 2009

(edit - scroll down for the score!)

Alrighty - for all of those Idahoans or those former Idaho Falls Tigers out there (especially that sweet, ovary-acting girl in Provo, named Nicholas) here are a couple pictures of the weather currently:

The view outside of my apartment.  It doesnt LOOK nearly as bad as it FEELS.

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And then I took a picture with the flash on so you could actualy SEE the freaking SNOW!  It isnt coming down very bad NOW - but around 6:00 it was like a BLIZZARD.

Luckily though (Im bad with directions) but I am pretty sure the wind is blowing towards the SKYLINE side of the stadium.  But still - there are gonna be some freezing fans out there on both sides!

I AM SO GLAD to no longer be a CHEER MOM!  I hate football and I really hate snow. I may be WEARING ORANGE today, but no one will get to see it because I will be TOASTY WARM indoors tonight!

GOOOOOOOOOOOO TIGERS!!!!!!!!!!!!!
(will spray paint even stick to cold, wet goal posts?)

HOLY FREAKING CRAP!!!!!!!!!!!!!  IFHS IS THE BEST!
IDAHO FALLS 28 - SKYLINE 13
 
 

HOLY CRAP!!!!!!! (post secret rocks)

I know that most of my personal friends are POST SECRET fans and followers just like me.  I dont know how many of my internet or Facebook friends are obsessed with POST SECRET too, but if youre not - you really should be! 

I wrote a post on here last year about my adoration for POST SECRET and explaining what it was and who started it and all that good stuff. 

You can read all about it right here (you totally know you want to) and that I really want you to.

Dont worry - this post DOES actually have a point.

Well I mentioned in that post that you know you want to click on and read that I wanted to go to an event of Franks.  Blake took me to one in Logan last April.  It was AMAZING!!!!!!!!!!! We even got to sit right behind his wife and chat with her.  AND - Frank gave ME one of his books!  It was so fun. 

I also mentioned in that post that I was going to send in a secret of my own and that EVERYONE should do the same.

Then about a month later - I posted on here about how I wanted to show my favorite secrets each week AND THAT I HAD SENT IN MY OWN!!!!!!!!!!

Well needless to say, I never kept up with showing you guys my favorite secrets from each week.  HUGE SHOCK THERE - I KNOW!!!!!!!  lol

HOWEVER (and here is the point of my story) I have sent secrets in to Frank AND when we were in Logan, Blake and I even left our own secrets with Frank before we left.  He hasnt posted our Logan secrets (I know this because they were on matching postcards) so I am hoping they are going to be in his new book.  But for now, I will totally live with the fact that:

ONE OF MY POSTCARDS IS ON THE POST SECRET WEBSITE RIGHT THIS VERY MOMENT!!!!

Noooooooooooooooo - I will NOT tell a single soul (not even you madeline) which one it is, and if you try guessing I will NOT even acknowledge it.  But if you have been thinking of sending one in, but thought there was no use because yours would NEVER get chosen to be on the site - HERES YOUR PROOF THAT YOU REALLY SHOULD GO FOR IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!   

COMPETITION

So - everyone is pretty much aware of my obsession with CHRISTINA AGUILERA.  She is shockingly HOT!!!!!!!!

Now country music girls dont tend to be as DIRRTY as other music type girls - HOWEVER.....
those pop singing chickies have got some new competition in the HOTTNESS department!  Yes, Taylor always looks good and in PICTURE TO BURN she was way hot too - but
this new video from CARRIE UNDERWOOD will definitely cause a stir (in more ways than one) and is totally able to compete with the other HOT videos out there! 

COWBOY CASANOVA............

Carrie Underwood   More CMT Music   More CMT Music Videos

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I LOVE IT!!!!!!!!!!!! 

My Girl - CHRISTINA!

I think that CHRISTINA AGUILERA is one of the HOTTEST women EVER!  Well second to ME of course!  So in the spirit of DIRTINESS and BITCHINESS and NASTINESS i thought I would share with all of you a few of her videos!  Just in case you had missed them and were feeling like your life was a bit empty!

and there ARE advertisements before each one - but if you can survive those 15 seconds of torture - then the video starts!

How DIRTY huh?  That song is the reason why if you ask some people if they like Christina or not they will say "SHES SO DIRTY"!!!!!!!!!!!!

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Say what you want about her - but she is such a creative genius!  Yes I know that she alone doesnt make her videos, but just in normal everyday life - she seldom looks the same.  One day shes blonde the next day shes bald (ok not really bald, but you know).  And is CANDYMAN not the cutest song EVER!?!?!?!?!?  If you listen close to the words, they are really quite NAUGHTY, but way cute too!

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This is one of my very favorites from her.  I like to say that I have a THEME SONG to my life - but I guess that I should say that I have 2.  Both are from Christina, this one and another that is older and I cant find a video for.  Its called STIL DIRRTY.  I love it!

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And this video would be for any of those SPECIAL SOMEONES in mine or any other girls life!
WINK WINK!!!!!!!!!!!!!

And dont worry everyone - I am totally still a COUNTRY GIRL!  Maybe tomorrow we will post some photos from the TAYLOR SWIFT or the BRAD PAISLEY concerts that we went to!

its been a while so we'll start slow

A quote from Marilyn Monroe:

"A woman is often measured by the things she cannot control.  She is measured by the way her body curves or doesnt curve.  By where she is flat or straight or round.  She is measured by 36-24-36 and inches and ages and numbers, by all the outside things that dont ever add up to who she is on the inside.  And so if a woman is to measured, let her be measured by the things she can control, by who she is and who she is trying to become.  Because as every woman knows measurements are only statistics, and statistics lie."

CANCER SUCKS ASS

Somewhere between real life, facebook and the blog world something has slipped through the cracks.  A very important little bit of information, I totally dont have time to go into all the details yet (there is a post down there about some of it) but for any one out there who doesnt know and for those facebookers who are constantly wondering why im crying or feeling like crap in my status':

STAGE 4
PANCREATIC
CANCER
IS INCHING
EVER CLOSER
TO TAKING
MY DAD AWAY
FROM US.

and yes - i said ASS up there!  there are way worse swear words that I COULD use to describe CANCER and my dad dying - but I thought i would spare you all and just say that

CANCER
SUCKS
ASS!!!!!!!!!!

SEPHORA

Why oh why oh why

will the most glorious store on Earth

NOT

come to Idaho Falls?????????????

I truly think that my seemingly normal

and peaceful existence

may start to deteriorate

and my life may soon end

due to the lack of

an amazing makeup store

in Idaho Falls or even

anywhere in the vicinity.

SERIOUSLY.

Am I really the only self centered/money wasting/makeup snob/bare escentual loving/pore hating/Sephora whore in all of southeast Idaho???????????????